Confessions of a Super Active Overthinking Mind

Friday, January 06, 2017

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'To think too much is a disease.'
- Fyodor Dostoyevsky
Preface: When I walked past my boss today, he didn’t greet me well. Then, when I walked past him again, deliberately, he made a brief eye-contact. What did I do? Does he intend to fire me? What is going on? What does it mean? This definitely means something – think Amna, think! This has a deeper meaning…reach to its depth, just think and let your mind be the bigger boss! Think straight! But not too straight – zigzag straight! (Extract from the mind of an over thinker – not necessarily me, okay!)

As someone who has a hyperactive over thinking, over imaginative mind, I know the struggle, the burden and the mental hubbub. It’s like we find it necessary to dig out the deeper meaning in everything, no matter how miniscule. Yes, it consumes us but we can’t help it. And finally when we over analyze and reach to the deepest darkest secrets of the human behavior, that is our winning moment – ‘Eureka!’ But that’s not the end for us, we move onto our next assignment and try to figure that out. There’s no stop or pause button – it’s a constant play of our over creative minds! I know what you are thinking – that we, over thinkers, make every situation in our lives at least 100 times more complicated than it actually is! Right? Damn! And then you think we over think! Don’t over think, just read on!

The 'box' atop our bodies doesn’t ever zip up! If we ever make a mistake (even a paltry one), it is likely we end up mulling over a hundred other ways we could have handled the situation. Our brains are constantly moving at least ten steps ahead of the present/actual moment. Now where exactly are our brains, you ask? At the conclusion part of everything before it even begins. We can ‘create’ conversations in our heads even before they take place and also create possible scenarios and outcomes in different situations and run it over through our minds. This is what makes us far-sighted. We are always heedful of the warnings and the risks involved in taking steps because we've already 'seen' all the possible outcomes!!!

We’ve great fondness for replaying all the day’s events in our heads; sometimes we are stuck at one-liners musing on how we could have said it if it at all occurred to us in time.

So, you are expecting a response through email. Well, sit back and relax as this could take us forever. We write emails, we write them fast but then we keep altering the content until satisfied. After we write a response, we analyze it from a second party perspective – what if the receiver misinterprets our tone? So, it’s always better to delete it, then rewrite it, then again reread it - this time it's likely to come across as too forthcoming, so we'll delete it again. Phew! That’s a lot of work we are putting in there just to assure you guys don’t misinterpret. And it doesn’t cease here – once the mail is dispatched, we have to reread it (at least two times) and judge it from various angles as to how would it sound to the reader. Damn! There is no escape! 

A book or a movie that has an ending which is open to interpretation is our favorite as it brings out our already active minds into some more furious action. This one feels exactly like the itchy tag on the back of a sweater, though. You want to get rid of the discomfort but the warmth of the sweater feels great too! Hours go into analyzing and Googling what could've been the best ending!

Now that you all know how our minds are constantly in overdrive, you must be thinking it would be simple to shut them down by taking a shuteye. Wait! Hang in there! There’s more to come! We easily lose hours once these overloaded heads hit the pillow. Just when we think we will drift off, a thought creeps in slowly and whoosh... sleep becomes the thing of the past! The thought that hits us is pored over for the rest of the night. There is something about the nighttime – the darkness and the quietude just gets to us. ♫ Go and tell, go and tell, go and tell them they're out…Pull the blinds, kill the lights, over my eyes…Oh, oh, sleep is for the weak now 

Since, it’s our life’s mission to find deeper meaning and clarity about everything that is going on around us, we are the pioneers of conspiracy theories. Your diction fascinates us - so much so that we spin it, turn it and twist it! We are masters at language dissection. We’ll open our phone dictionaries, scroll down to the sixth definition of it and apply it to our conversation and spend the rest of the day reeling. Aren’t we fun?

As you would already know there is a lot going on in our heads, we keep using the ‘notes’ option in our phones to make long lists and then cross them out as we complete the items. We receive great satisfaction in planning out things and visually seeing all that planning getting crossed off!! We can’t possibly handle all the rushing brain thoughts hitting our minds like the waves of the ocean, so lists are a great way to manage the over brimming imagination. Ah the attainment of perfection! 

Nobody just walks by us, we are keen observers – we notice how people talk, walk and function. We can be great mimics! We get constant mental flights while in a conversation or a lecture or a meeting, because this mind doesn’t rest! Our attention span is short...very short. Over thinking also makes us highly considerate and thoughtful - because we over think, we also over feel, which in turn helps us empathize and sympathize more openly with others.

You are most possibly an over-thinker, even if you don’t think that you are. But don’t think about it too much. I know you won’t *winks*

Here’s to over thinking over thinking!

And here's a sweet little treat for your ears :)

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23 comments

  1. Mam, the song was nice...and behind the veil of orders and notices there comes a real of you .... a peculiar person to my surprise

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    1. Haha surprised to see you here. Thank you and keep visiting the blog!

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  2. I was searching for some articles and accidently stumbled upon your blog :-)

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  3. 1. Don't overthink.

    2. Don't make people's problems yours.

    3. Be a solipsist.

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    1. Good tips! I am working on this side of me and I have improved and progressed a long way, ever since I wrote this article..

      P.S Had to look up for the meaning of 'solipsist'. Happy to learn something new from you, Faisal :) Thanks!

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  4. When I was younger I definitely was an over thinker. However, that didn't do me any good. I don't know if one could ever be at peace if they are. I am happy to release the energy I used to spend on overthinking and navigate it towards something that will benefit me and those around me.

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    1. Yes, overthinking does no good and takes your peace away. I have changed a lot since I last wrote this. Cutting the overthinking routine helps you feel liberated :) don't ever want to give up on that now. Thanks for sharing your thoughts on this.

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  5. To think too much truly is a disease. It kills mind and soul.

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    1. Seriously, you are right. It is a disease for the mind and the soul. Thank you for the taking the time to read this :)

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  6. This is so me to a T! I've always overthought everything. It can be so frustrating!

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    1. I know.. very frustrating. You need to try 'underthinking' lol I am sure once you try it, you would want to hold on to it. It liberates you from worries. Thanks for putting your comment here :)

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  7. Overthinking can be really overwhelming. Thanks for a great article.

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    1. Thank you for your comment :) Yes it could be overwhelming and overpowering in not a very positive way.

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  8. I believe I suffer from the same disorder. When I was younger it was if I was going to a movie preview what would I dream about that night, now I sit and try to figure life out and the problems with in

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    1. I know, I can relate to this. When younger, one seldom ever overthinks, it is when we get older that we start thinking a little too much. It is always best to try getting rid of this disorder before it eats us up :p Thank you, Angie !

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  9. I see myself so much in your post!! I´m always overthinking and creating problems

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    1. haha it's good to know there is somebody out there quite like myself :D but I have tried changing myself.. and trust me your life is so much better when you are not overthinking.

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  10. me all ive been thinking a lot before i sleeping. then in the end i was having a insomia! LOL

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  11. Over thinking has gotten me in some trouble if I am perfectly honest with you. I love your posts. They are full great stories and lessons.

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    1. Yes, it gets one into trouble.. Thank you so much for your kind words :) I am truly humbled!

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  12. Overthinking can take you to another world of madness. Mind is nothing but a heap of memory which will keep recycling if you pay too much attention to every though being produced. Loved your article! Thanks for sharing :)

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    1. I like how you have put it :) It does transport us to a another world where we keep cooking stories on our own LOL thanks a lot for your comment !! :)

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To Kill a Mockingbird
Animal Farm
Of Mice and Men
The Alchemist
Me Talk Pretty One Day
Romeo and Juliet
Lord of the Flies
The Adventures of Huckleberry Finn
The Odyssey
A Tale of Two Cities
Frankenstein
Moby-Dick; or, The Whale
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